Oh thankgod or thank Ana!

Yay so far my 1000 calorie plan is working. Lost 800 grams. So gonna be tricky today as I'll be out all day but I will try not to eat and if I do I'll eat salad. There are some nice salad bars in the city. No dressing, but that is not weird for me I hate dressing. Well I am buying diuretics today see if I can get rid of some of my puffyness. It is extra bad atm.

Have a good day y'all

JB
xoxo

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