Well as I predicted as soon as I started restricting to under 1000 cals finally I would see a loss. It was only 1.1kgs and I cannot be sure how accurate it is as I had to use the scales at the doctors for mine are not working grrrrrrr. I haven't been that much under 1000 either Monday was only 996 and yesterday was 871. I imagine today will be kinda the same. I took some laxatives last night to have a clean out, lol TMI??? Anyways I am doing heaps more cleaning today so hopefully will burn more calories. Well I cannot think of much else to write right now. JB xoxo
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Hate this! And this is why I get discouraged by trying to lose weight the healthy way. So I have been eating good food, healthy and nutrient dense food. And........................ I am up 200 grams on the scales. Trying to figure out what drastic changes I can make today so I can see a loss tomorrow. I need it for morale if nothing else because I know if I don't see my weight go down I will say "fuck it" and go binge on nasty food and probably not diet again for awhile. Just got to eat under 1000 calories today. Somehow I will make this happen. I am charging up my jawbone again so I can keep track of my movements. I graduate in a year and I would love to be under 100kgs even if its 99.9kgs I need to lose 40 kgs in a year, that's a lot can I do it? I would love to lose more but not sure if that is possible. Well I am going to watch thin again and then spend the day doing housework and burning calories. JB xoxo
Sorry peeps! It feels that whenever I post a yay I'm restricting again comment I then binge the next day and fall back into over eating. I so want my ED to come back fully, gosh I miss it. I know that's crazy but it is true. Every thing in my life is so chaotic and out of control that maybe if I can work up to restricting again I'll get that sense of calm that comes with pure empty stomachs. Maybe now is a good time since my income has changed dramatically and next week I have $60 for groceries for myself and my son and fuel to get my son to school. I stood on the scales on Wednesday after I tried on a bunch of plus size dresses Tuesday and was super depressed. I currently weigh 139.5 kgs (307 lbs or nearly 22 stone) and I told myself that I will never allow myself to get to 140 kgs. So I started a diet that day. Its been going well and atm I am just trying to eat as clean as possible with only whole grain carbs like brown rice and minimal sugar which is my crack. I