Grin for Thin

I thought I was better. I thought I was cured. It's been two years since I posted. And for a long time I was doing well. I was eating well and losing weight healthily. I tried keto and flourished until I had my first meal high carb. Then I struggled getting back into it. I lost 20kgs from it. I managed to maintain. This year has been hard. February I had a emotional breakdown. It started around my childhood sexual abuse traumaversity. I don't know why this year was different but it really rocked me to my core. The overwhelming emotions brought me to my knees. I had to take stress leave from work. I started to get past it and life was going well. I was approached by a recruiter for a new job which I got so was able to leave the terrible job I was in. Things were starting to go right. Then I received a phone call late one night from my mother saying goodbye and that she was ending it all. I got her to the ER in time and she is ok now. But I'm not! Then about a month a