Seriously WTF?!?!?!

How can I gain 1.1kgs from a 500 calories day? I think it is water weight from the salt I added to my soup cos I accidently put too much in. I am honestly in whats the point mode. I think I failed the exam and now with this, well I just want to binge and eat everything in my mother fucking house. I will not though today I will clean and exercise maybe take some laxatives and hope that the extra weight is off by tomorrow. I honestly was expecting to be just under my FGW of 100kgs or actually 99.9kgs (I really want to see double digits). I was only 300grams away yesterday. Well I am in a foul mood and am going to take it out on myself by getting my heart rate up and get sweating.

JB
xoxo

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