Today is a starting off well. I checked the scales three times. Each time 112.1 displayed at me. In three days I managed to lose the binge weight, hit my first mini goal of getting under my previous highest weight and have now lost 10kgs in nearly 6 weeks. Next mini goal to get under 110kgs.
She is waking up from deep within my bones. She has slumbered only to wake and growl and grumble at meal times. Quieter and less frequently in the beginning. Now louder and the time between not so far apart. Recovery is hard and I'm not sure if I'm strong enough. I'm not sure if I want it enough. I'm a few kgs up and I can't stand it! God I hate myself. Weak, useless failure.
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