I used to be able to write blogs everyday. Now I never know what to write. I'm doing fairly ok. M
I felt like bingeing one night so I hate 1155 calories to stop the binge. I felt so guilty for seeing my calories go past the 1000.

So far Ive list 6.6kgs in 20 days. It's more than I've lost in ages. Still can't see any difference and obviously no one else can either. I just want to look in the mirror one day and see jutting collarbones and prominent cheekbones.

I hope I get there one day. I don't want to leave this world being the fat girl.

My mantra ATM is pretty girls don't eat, pretty girls don't eat, pretty girls don't eat.

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