I'm so upset and bewildered. My weight keeps going up. I'm eating under 1000 Cal's I don't know what's happening. I had gains everyday for the last three days.

As much as I love my family I wish I could have a few weeks alone so I could liquid fast like I used to where I didn't go over 3kgs.

I need to drop my cals to under 800 today or lower. We are going for pancakes tomorrow for a late father's Day thing for my partner so I know my calories will be higher. Even if I ate nothing else tomorrow the pancakes will probably be like 1290 Cal's. I'm getting anxious just thinking of it. I might have to take laxatives tomorrow night to help. Haven't taken laxatives in years.