Recovering from a migraine. Feeling pretty drained and tender. Weightloss is going well. I only need to lose another 700grams to be where I was before we went away. I doubt my weight will be under what it was last week for my weekly weigh in. So sick of being fat and disgusting. I want to walk into any shop and be able to wear anything.

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