Hi Lovelies,

I am feeling low today peeps. My scales are broken so yeah freaking out about that. Well good motivation for me to go to gym so I can check my weight. My finances are so severely screwed right now. And I binged last night gah. I only ate 788 calories thank god. But the poinr is I lost control and I could feel the frenzy coming on. I think the only reasons I was able to pull back was that I had no way of purging it, I couldn't have gotten away with throwing up and I have no laxatives. Also we are celebrating mums birthday tomorrow night and I am making curry so I know I will be having far to many calories tomorrow night. I am so not looking forward to it. I am not sure why I binged. Maybe because I felt guilty bailing from my walk because I was tired, lazy fat ass. Or maybe it was my stupid brain going "oh are you making this not enough food thing a habit? Hmmm let me make this interesting". But I don't really know.
Well I don't have more to add right now. So going to get ready to take my puppy for a walk and then clean the house.

Hope everyone is having a decent day.

JB
xoxo

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  1. Anonymous19 May 2015 at 09:46

    I'm so sorry about your binge. If it makes you feel better, there are some people out there who eat that in one or two meals. Could you get away with making a side curry dish that's a little healthier on the side for yourself tomorrow, or no? Lots of love and wishing you the best of luck <3

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  2. Josie19 May 2015 at 16:22

    Thanks. Yeah not really do not want to appear out of the normal. I will just have to watch my portions. Plus I made the curry. So I didnt put oil in it and trim at least 90% of the fat off. So as long as I do not go stupid I should be able to get away with no more then 1000 calories today (eeeek), that is still alot. Lol feel a panic attack coming on thinking about it. Xoxo

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