Having a conundrum. I am hungry but don't want to eat, but need to eat so I can think because I need to get this assignment done. Maybe I will stretch my calories to 600 today gahhhh. Also don't have time for my walk today shit.

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  1. Anonymous17 May 2015 at 05:00

    You should definitely stretch your intake for today so you can get your assignment done in a satisfactory manner. You can always make up for it tomorrow. .Take care of yourself hon <3

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  2. Josie17 May 2015 at 06:56

    Thanks Lovely,
    I managed to only consume 442 calories and submit my assignment 7 hours before deadline so I am happy

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