Hi Lovelies,

So yesterday was the end of week 2. Total weight loss 2.2kgs. Absolute crap. Hopefully this week will be better. Although with my period who knows. Below is last weeks calorie chart. Intake was up by 6 calories but burnt 298 cals more then last week. I really want to get my total to under 1000 cals per week. Oh well at least its a slight improvement over the previous week. 
Week 2DateDayCalories InCalories OutTOTAL (Cals in - out)
20/5/15Wednesday670308362
21/5/15Thursday563563
22/5/15Friday268651-383
23/5/15Saturday458704-246
24/5/15Sunday434434
25/5/15Monday32525273
26/5/15Tuesday463463
TOTAL318119151266

So went to the gym this morning. Then went shopping and brought binge food. I have been feeling a binge coming on for days now and have been trying to keep it in control until today when I knew I had time and privacy to purge. Now I am not a huge binge and purge kinda girl and now I remember why. So the binge wasn't that big. I bought a small loaded fries, mars bar, snickers bar, blueberry muffin and aplle and cinnamon muffin. I ate half the fries, 1/3 mars bar, 1/4 snickers and 1/4 of each muffin. I just could not fit any more in. Plus none of it tasted that great anyway. I felt wretched. Manage to purge with minimal effort. Feel shaky and weak now.  Going to lie on couch, sip water until I can manage my zero sugar powerade. So not doing that again in a hurry. Well gonna go die now.

Stay strong 
JB
xoxo

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