Useless, FAT, Loser!

I am do depressed. I was so angry and down yesterday after the gain I went and binged and purged in the day time which I have never done before. Continued to eat low cals for the rest of the day except for 2 pieces of garlic bread with dinner. Part of me is in fuck it mode but part of me is still fighting for weight loss. I caved in and ate breakfast before, a bowl of cereal nearly 300 calories fuck. I only 300 grams since yesterday. Well my plans have changed on the master cleanse since it is getting interrupted by the weekend. So I am going to stop for now and resume on Monday when I get back. My mother is coming tomorrow and driving us and the cake down to the family's for the birthday. I wonder if they will notice I have lost weight? I can't really, my clothes tell me I have but when I look in the mirror I just see a worthless fat blob. Going to do a salt water flush tomorrow to get as much grossness out of me as I can. Well I better get working on this cake.

JB
xoxo

8th of February
Food
Breakfast: None
Lunch: 1 cup of master cleanse
Dinner: 2 cups of vege soup (134), 2 slices of garlic bread (164)
Snacks: Tea's one including almond milk (25)

Exercise
None

Total net calories: 436

Comments

  1. Christina10 February 2012 at 22:09

    Tomorrow will be better. Keep your head up.

    xx

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  2. Nasimiyu14 February 2012 at 03:05

    urgh sorry to hear this, but your net looks good, just focus on the future! xo

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