Excited and nervous!

Hi girls!!! I finally have a chance to post quickly on here. Ok with the exception of yesterday (2186) I have behaved myself with food and kept my calories within 1000-1200 per day while mum's been here. I am pretty proud of myself for this. I have no idea what I weigh atm scales are still stuffed. I joined the gym the other day and am having an assessment in 2 days so I will find out then. I am scared. On other news a friend who is a guy whom I have had sex with a few times invited me around to his tomorrow night for some "fun" so am looking forward to that but also very nervous as it has been a long time since we have done anything, like over  a year. So tomorrow I am eating as little as possible so hopefully my stomach will be as flat as I can get it. Thanks girls for the lovely comments you are treasures.

JB
xoxo

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  1. Anonymous27 February 2012 at 03:03

    That's excellent well done on sticking to it!
    The gym will give you heaps of motivation, it's good to have a proper assessment when you start too :)

    Si xx

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