Hi Lovelies,

God I'm a loser. Yesterday at work was hell. So my first reaction was to comfort myself with shitty food all day. Today another 300 grams loss. Plus my stomach hurts like a mofo. Another huge hellish day today. If I can just get my shit together and try and lose 1kg in the next 2 days that will be something. Going to allow myself toast for breakfast today because I need to concentrate. I nearly make a $50k fuck up yesterday. FUCKKKKK I'M SO TIRED! Going  to spend most of Christmas napping I can tell. Yay how exciting for my family. It's fucked. I don't get paid enough for this shit. I was at work for nearly 12 hours yesterday. 10 the day before. Who knows what today will be.

Well thats my whingefest done.

Much Love
 JB
 xoxo

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