Plateau :(

So quick update because I did not post yesterday. Yesterday I weighed myself and had dropped another 1.5kgs / 3.3 pounds. Today I weighed in and I gained 100gms FUCK I have no idea how this is even possible yesterday I only consumed 36 cals. My only idea is that I did another salt water flush and maybe my body did not release it all. I knew the plateau would come but it is still depressing so I am going to try and increase my cals a lil today to see if I can trick my metabolism. It is interesting though my first emotional response to something not going the way I want it is that I want to binge. But I will not give in to it, nothing solid shall pass these lips. I am still on my liquid fast and finding the lower my calorie intake the less hungry I feel. I love it so much. I really need to start researching low cal vegan dishes for when my lover gets here and my mother gets back and I have to eat. Noooooo really scared I know how I struggle swallowing my 24 cal soup down because it is abit thicker than other stuff I eat so I will have to break this fast before lover gets here to train myself to keep food down so to not arise suspicion.

Hope you lovelies are doing well.

JB

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