I will be thin! I will be beautiful!

Ok so felt like crap today, stabbing stomach pains, nauseous and so light headed that I thought I might actually faint. Ok today's calorie count is 92 so that is not too bad. I have been praying to Ana for a loss tomorrow although I thought about praying to god at first but thought that might be a lil sacrilegious considering what I am doing to obtain religion.
Anyways to get my head back in the right space I started watching America's Next Top Model and watched the whole of season 1 today and managed to clean my house yay me. So decided that with every season I was I will pick who I think is the most thinspirational and do some thinspo on my blog with them. So my season 1 choice is Elyse Sewell. When she was measured and weighed on the show she was 5"10 in height and an amazing 114 pounds and I love her bones. Every time someone called her too thin I yelled at them and wanted to throw a shoe at the screen. 

So without further ado my pretties I leave you with some of her work.

JB








P.S. Not all these photos were from the show some were from her career following the show.

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