I remember an old post I have on here where I sang the praises of digital scales and thier accuracy. Well spent a fortune on the Fitbit scales and the thing is so unreliable. I am anywhere from 111.7 to 113.1. I'm calling it the latter to be safe and just say I didn't lose any weight. I hope I am down tomorrow for my weekly weigh in. I need to be at least 400grams lower. 

The weekend is around the corner and I'm terrified I'll fuck up again. I don't trust myself at all. I'm such a stupid fatty.

Well the cakes are baked and tonight need to decorate them ready to be collected tomorrow. 

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