Hi Lovelies,

Today has been a mixture of good and bad. Bad is that I failed my last exam for economics so I have to d ok it again. And my destructive dogs got out of the yard. Lucky my neighbour rang and put them back in but now I'll be stressed until I can make sure its fixed properly. I have a work function tonight with food and booze around. I have to wear a dress and try and glamorous but I won't because I'll look like a whale in a sheet. I will have a few champagnes and try my best to exert my willpower and say no to food.

The good is that I lost 2.2kgs since yesterday. Lost 3.1kgs in 3 days whoo. Calories were only 358 or something because I decided I was too tired and could skip dinner. Today I will have consumed 180 calories by the time I get to the function. Then another 300-400 for drinks and I should be able to see this day through on 600 cals max.

I must be strong. Please be strong. I really want to be in the 116's by tomorrow. It will be my lowest weight this year. Yes I will be strong! Nothing besides what I have calculated shall pass these lips. I will be thin and glamorous this time next year when all these functions are on again.

Much Love,
JB
Xoxo

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