Hi Lovelies,

I'm Engaged!!!! Four years we have been together and he proposed three nights ago. We went away for the weekend for our anniversary and it was perfect.

Now the scary part starts. I need to lose so much weight before I get married. I don't want to go back to crazy restricting but I am scared I will. I am going to do the master cleanse starting Friday to give me a kick start.

I want to be healthy not thin. But also want to look good on my wedding day. Going to try on wedding dresses soon so I can have motivation by seeing how awful I look as a fat bride.

I'm so happy!

JB

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  1. Bella5 April 2017 at 14:55

    Wow! Congrats!! :D

    xx

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  2. mak-niebieski6 April 2017 at 12:30

    Good look on wedding preparation <3 And congratulations !

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  3. Josie6 April 2017 at 18:04

    Thanks lovelies. The wedding is somewhat mostly planned. Just need to lose weight and save money.

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