Thank god my appetite has gone again. Yesterday was good only consumed 535 calories. Today has been good so far only 73 calories and its 6pm. Gonna have a work out soon. Woot!!!! Feels good to be empty. My libido is back something fierce too which is great. I am more motivated when it is fired up, plus I have a boy coming over to play with next week so need to get as firm and stomach as flat as I can in 5 days. I worked out that it is 28 weeks until my birthday and I have 28 kgs to lose so 1kg a week is totally reachable. Hellz Yeah girls I'm back.

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