Hi Lovelies, I hate being me. Well since my post the other day I have fallen apart. I ran at the gym the other day and the day after. Yesterday we went to the beach and I had an anxiety attack because I was the fattest personn at the beach. I couldn't take my clothes off and sunbake in my swimmers. I just laid down on the towel and cried myself to sleep on what is considered to be one of the most beautiful beaches in Australia. Then we drove back with the roof off the car and it was so fucking cold. My goose pimples had goose pimples. I keep trying to not eat much in the day then blowing out at night. I wish that I didn't have to stay alive for my son because I can't bear to make him an orphan. Because I honestly wish I could end it all. Then when my partner picked me up from the train station the tyre blew up. So we waited for 1 1/2 hours for the roadside assistance. Then the fuck it switch went off in my brain and I have now consumed 2400 calories. Well that's me...
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Hi Lovelies, Feeling really stressed and anxious atm. In the past week I habe recieved a $1200 electricity bill, a $1100 vet bill, a $550 internet/mobilr phone bill and I know I am getting a speeding ticket in the mail soon as I know I got caught with a camera the other day. I must find a job or I am screwed. I am also sad as it's my last week at my internship this week and I dont want it to end. I am going to bake a batch of brownies to take in on my final day. Finally been able to get back to the gym twice this week which is thr most in a long time. I am going back today as well. I had a super stressed uni assignment week amd gained 2.5kgs from stress eating. Managed to lose that theb put a kg on then lost it. So now I am right on 25kgd weight loss. I really need to lose the other 5kgs asap as I have been floundering around this weight loss and weight range for months. How can I lose over 17.5 by December the 8th. I would LOVE to be under 100kgs by Graduation. Well I am ...