Hmmmm 2 lectures to listen too and 5 chapters to summarise. I am already two days behind where I wanted to be. Besides watch biggest loser tonight and stopping for an hour to do a mammoth clean I will not leave my desk until I get the basic concepts of economics figured out. I hate economics so much. Still have to study for Law and Accounting. The panic is rising steadily and it is lodged in my throat atm, making me feel like I could throw up at any moment. I did something bad last night. I played around on cam with ex who has a girlfriend. What is wrong with me? I don't want to be one of those women that pursue other women's men. My loneliness is getting to the scary time where I start doing stupid and selfish things to get a feel good to ease the feelings of loneliness :(. Still flirting ith the vegan guy who at least is available but who knows where or if that will lead to.
Well I lost 500 grams since yesterday but still 2.5kgs in 3 days is pretty good. Only 1kg away from where I want to be on Thursday so at I am very confident I will meet and surpass that. Well went over 500 calories yesterday but only by 6. Sick of this rain, cannot even go for a walk :(. Oh well I have 6 hours til my show and I would like to get to my economics study finished by then. Ciao for now.

JB
xoxo