I suck at success

Well I fucked up yesterday and binged mainly on bread and bit of pudding gah. I need to get a new scale asap I need my daily accountability back. Thursday was okish ate 835 calories and burnt 472 leaving me with a net of 363. I need to start restricting strictly again I just feel too hungry all the time atm. I really want to do a salt water flush today but not sure if I have any salt so about to go on a hunt to see if I do.

JB
xoxo

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  1. Brown Eyed Cowgirl10 March 2012 at 10:53

    what's the purpose of a salt water flush? I"m not sure I've ever heard of that before....Hope things get better, cheer up!

    xx SN

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  2. Josie10 March 2012 at 16:26

    Skinny it is a gentle way to remove waste ie poop. Well when I say gentle I mean more that your body doesn't become reliant on it like laxatives and usually its all over and done with in a few hours. I do them regularly to keep my insides clean.

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