Grin for Thin

So quick update because I did not post yesterday. Yesterday I weighed myself and had dropped another 1.5kgs / 3.3 pounds. Today I weighed in and I gained 100gms FUCK I have no idea how this is even possible yesterday I only consumed 36 cals. My only idea is that I did another salt water flush and maybe my body did not release it all. I knew the plateau would come but it is still depressing so I am going to try and increase my cals a lil today to see if I can trick my metabolism. It is interesting though my first emotional response to something not going the way I want it is that I want to binge. But I will not give in to it, nothing solid shall pass these lips. I am still on my liquid fast and finding the lower my calorie intake the less hungry I feel. I love it so much. I really need to start researching low cal vegan dishes for when my lover gets here and my mother gets back and I have to eat. Noooooo really scared I know how I struggle swallowing my 24 cal soup down because it is ab...

Today has been awesome full of energy. Class was great so many compliments on my hair and jewelery. At first my lecturer did not recognize me. The best part was I could fold the lecture desk that is attached to the seat down completely it always would not go flat down co of my fat stomach so that shows me I am on the right track woot. Lowest cal day so far onyl 34 and I feel fantastic. Stay gorgeous girls and guys. JB

Feeling pretty darn good today. There is nothing coffee cannot fix. Also my last class for semester abit sad. But I do get to go flaunt my new hairdo at uni yay. I lost another 800 gms/ 1 poumd and have hit the 7kgs loss I wanted 1 day late but yay it is here 5.6 kgs to go then I am back under the 100's and into the double digits. FEELING PUMPED!!!!!!!!!! Stay Strong and Starve On!!!!! JB

Today has been weird. I have been starving then not, then happy then sad. Feeling a little deflated today will explain another time. I want to get to bed so just a quick post updating my new measurements. Upper Arms =38 cms / 15 inches. Lost 1cm. Bust = 121 cms / 47.6 inches. No change. Waist = 108 cms / 42.5 inches. Lost 3cm yay. Hips = 131 cms  / 51.6 inches.No change. Thighs = 70 cms / 27.6 inches. Lost 6 cms very happy with this. Calves = 51cms / 20.1 inches. Gained 3 cms poo but I am pretty sure it's muscle mass not fat mass. Also my BMI is now 35.5 which is down 2.2 from last week. Well I am off to bed now to sleep until I can weigh in again in the morning. Keep thinning. JB               

I am not feeling well shakey, dizzy and weak so am resigning myself to having to increase my cals today to 350 so I can function. Last 3 days I have kept my cals under 200 so hopefully increasing to 350 today wont do too much damage. So I did not feel well enough to blog last night and had to rush yesterday to get to my hairdressers  appointment.  Yesterday I lost 600gms and today I'd lost another 1.8 kgs. My weight loss in a week 1 is 6.2 kgs or 14 pounds . I was hoping for 7 kgs but oh well I am close. Hopefully I can drop another 6.4 kgs quickly I want to get under the 100 kgs. On other news my hair looks great and got so many positive comments from friends on facebook. Although I do not know how much of my big drop yesterday was due to my hairloss, as I got half my hair cut off and it was long.  I have a lover arriving in 13 days damn it was hoping he was not going to come. I am trying to figure out what I am going to do in regards to hiding my ED from him. Although i...

Trying to do buttons up with only semi dried nails is just FAIL lol. Well what can I say my fat self tried to take over today but thankfully Ana told her to shut up! I was tempted to take a bus instead of walking but I didn't even though I desperately needed to pee! I had to go pick mums car up from the shop today I was feeling light headed and dizzy so I made myself have a 91 cal protein shake. I am a bad driver when I am at my best so I definitely needed some fuel for concentration. Have not really felt hungry today which is great. At least I am starting to recognize boredom from hunger. Calorie total today is 177 ten more than yesterday. Tomorrow is haircut day woot can not wait. I brought some fake nails today as I decided to go on a date tomorrow and wanted to look half way decent with my new hair, nails done and makeup. Not because I wish to impress this guy frankly I am not that interested he is hot and all, but I find it even harder to trust men who...

What a great way to start the day! I weighed in again when I woke up dropped 1.7kgs yay. I have lost 3.8 kgs (8 pounds) in 5 days. Wonder if I will hit the two week plateau next week gosh. I hope not really anxious to get back under the 100kg mark asap. Well it's good to know all the hard work yesterday payed off. My celebratory cigarette last night was disappointing, so do not know if I will be in a hurry to have another one any time soon so that is good. Today I will spend my kid free day cleaning and making my long list of phonecalls and try and get an hour brisk walk in this afternoon. Until then stay strong JB